The day from my year in France when my favorite actor died....

I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair.

I hate the way you drive my car, I hate it when you stare.

I hate your big dumb combat boots and the way you read my mind.

I hate you so much it makes me sick,it even makes me rhyme.

I hate the way you’re always right, I hate it when you lie.

I hate it when you make me laugh,even worse when you make me cry.

I hate it when you’re not around, and the fact that you didn’t call.

But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you, not even close…not even a little bit… not even at all.

~poem from "10 Things I Hate About You"

I woke up this morning to get ready for work, checked my email, saw Heath Ledger's photo online but ignored it. After clicking out of my email I saw the headline: Heath Ledger Dead at 28. I was in shock. Couldn't believe it. Still can't. I could barely read the article before clicking out of it and tearing up. I tried not checking the internet all day because I knew how upset it'd make me. Finally tonight I read everything and watched the videos from The Today show...and started bawling (after my Dad called). I'm just really sad. It's so unfair that someone so young and a GOOD person (assuming what everyone says is true), can die just like that. I am still in shock. I've loved this actor since "10 Things" came out...who is this hot Australian with those dimples and great hair?!? And ever since then he's made great films...The Patriot, A Knight's Tale, Four Feathers, Monster's Ball, The Brother's Grimm, Casanova, BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN (AKA Oscar nom), Candy, and just finished filming as Joker in the new Batman movie..........

I'm only writing all this for my own personal journal that I will look back at in years to follow...as the day in France when my favorite young male actor died. Maybe it's like how people felt when River Phoenix died.......and it's like how I would feel if Gwen died (although that'd be a REAL DARK DAY in my world!). Anyways...I'm sad for his ex-girlfriend and mother of his 2 year old daughter, and his family. Waiting to hear the autopsy results will be torture. I know he didn't do it on purpose so I'm so sad that this happened. I just can't imagine NOT seeing his gorgeous face on new movie posters and being excited to see his next movie.

I am going to watch a film tonight on iTunes....this is me...... stunned... :(

Besides this, today was a good day. I actually took the 3 kids to see their great grandfather in his nursing/assisted living home....and chatted for awhile with an elderly woman from London. She broke out in random song a few times. It was amusing, and she was very nice. Scared the kids a bit, but we laughed about it.

'm going to finish my homework and start my tribute to Heath via film.